Thursday, June 26, 2008

Update

This week has been going by pretty slowly.
One day feels like one week.
I can't believe it is only Thursday.

My body is tired.So is my mind....with so much going on.
The pain is getting too much to bear.

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My mother is going to have an operation on her gallbladder tomorrow morning.
I hope everything works out well for her and the operation will be a success.

Miss coldhearted, aka the anesthetist who is in charge of explaining the anesthetic procedure to the patients before their operations, did a pretty good job making us anxious about tomorrow.
I know it is probably better if we hear all those possible risks beforehand but she never gave us a single thing that is optimistic.Even when I mentioned that my mom had an operation for an intestinal blockage three years ago and that everything went okay back then, the heartless woman just said in a cold tone "That doesn't matter.It's been three years since then and the situation is not the same."

I hate her.

The surgeon in charge of my mom's operation gave us more reasons for anxiety later on when we were already fully aware of how much more risky her situation is than usual.

It all sounds to me that they are making excuses in advance.

In the end, the doctor finally made us feel a little better by promising that he would do his best to let my mom go home within 10 days after the operation.

Tomorrow is going to be a long long day.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Swallow tale

A few weeks ago a swallow started to make a nest under the eaves of my apartment.
After the nest was completed, the bird stayed there all the time so I figured she'd laid some eggs.
I don't really like birds because their legs look creepy, but I was hoping that those eggs would hatch okay.
Looking up the nest to check if they have hatched or not became one of my routines.

Last week I got a great shock when I found that the nest had fallen over to the ground.
There were three baby swallows in it and they were all dead, or at least they looked dead at the time.
When I was trying to pick them up in a bag to make a grave for them I realized that one of them was still alive....ugh that was a cruel sight.I wanted to save its life but knew there was nothing I could really do for a baby bird that even had no feather yet.
The next morning when I had a look at the fallen nest the baby birds were all gone.
They weren't there.....I guess they were preyed upon by some cats or crows or whatever.

Actually it wasn't the first time a swallow'd failed in its nest making/child care up my eaves.
I've seen a fallen nest on the ground and broken eggs around it twice before.
The worst case was when a snake(yes snake!) crowled up to the nest and ate the eggs.
I couldn't believe what I saw.The snake was lying coiled in the small nest with three humps on its belly.....ahhhh three eggs must have been swallowed.That was horrible.

I knoe that's the food chain. I know that's the law of nature.
The snake had to eat something to survive too I suppose.

But I had to take my revenge for the mather swallow's sake.
I sprayed a pesticide for cockroaches upon the snake not knowing if it would work on it but I had no other weapons.The snake soon fell over to the ground and crawled down to a ditch nearby.

A few days after that, I found the snake dead in the ditch.

I'm sorry for all the snake lovers out there, but I felt good.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Priority

The guy who took away 7 people's lives in Akihabara wrote something like this on his blog-ish online wall.

"Even if I consider you as the most important friend of mine, I know I am only like the 100th important friend to you."

It's not that I have my sympathy for him, but I couldn't help but took those words to heart.

How many people are there who think that I am one of the most important people in their lives?

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I don't know.

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"Dood, I never thought I would play basketball AND go clubbing with the same 30-something housewife!"


"Everytime I meet a girl I will ask myself...is she as cool as yuna?...the answer will always be NO!"


"I think all your family appreciate what you are doing.Remind yourself of that when things get tough."


"If I was sick and in the hospital I would be honored to have a daughter like you."


or simply.... "You are the bomb!"


I do know I have good friends.

Things are getting better at the moment so I will try and post more often from now on.
Sorry if you have kept coming back here to see if there was any new posts and have kept being disappointed.